So trying a pottery wheel has been one of my many dreams... Although it was my dream for a long time, when I had a chance I didn't take it...
Writing this post made me think back why that was, and I just realised, it was because I lost connection with myself (I didn't know who I was, didn't know what I wanted)... When you always make other people as your priority, you teach yourself not to think for yourself but always for others (never think what you want to do but what others want you to do... and it is to keep the peace or simply bacause you want to make them happy, but you stop thinking of yourself...)
(My wonderful friend got me a day pottery class as a gift in London, and I didn't think I deserve to put myself first to spend the whole day doing something for myself... so I never went... :()
Life gave me another chance... My amazing sister, who has known me better than I knew myself at the time, organised me to go to try out the pottery wheel when I went home for a visit in March 2022.
It was a truly unforgettable experience... I had so much fun making 3 little bowls, (didn't quite know what they will be when I started :)) I enjoyed every single second of it and while I was making them I had flashbacks of ME...
When you spend your life putting other people first and never really think about what YOU want, you can forget who you really are... and that is exatly what happened to me...
When you start to feel really uncomfortable in your skin, feel down a lot for no reason, get emotionally exhausted, ask yourself the question... Who am I and what do I want?
If you can't answer this question then you have been pleasing others for too long and you forgot your true self.... And then it's time to go in search of You...
And that is exactly what I have done and every step I made to find out who I really was got me closer to the life I want...
Looking at the lovely little imperfect bowls I made, will always remind me of that...
Thank you very much for my sister and the lovely lady who made this happen, she hasn't just let me use her pottery wheel, but 2 weeks later when they dried, she glazed and baked them and they were ready for me to be picked up next time I visited home...
And here they are:
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